bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

bigplays420:

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

thats because you fucked up and wasted 10 months of your life dating an actual horrible person with nothing going for him, you fucking idiot

she wants nothing to do with you

i fucking hate you

One year ago today.

I’ve come full circle.

“We were long distance. He lived in Portland and we were together about a year. I was gonna move up with him but when he came to take my stuff I kinda realized I wasn’t willing to give up being on my own or living close to my family and all my friends and I just realized that was all more important in my life than he was and I kinda just fell out of love “

I met you on the solstice,

The obvious beginning

To a summer love.

That weekend

brought me twenty hours

Of conversation,

Even after we parted.

A five mile walk

With a stranger,

A day admiring the ocean,

Our first kiss,

And the promise to talk

Even when you went back home

600 miles away.

I didn’t believe in love at first sight

Before-

No, I still don’t

But I believe we had

Infatuation with haste.

But this wasn’t to last.

Infatuation implies falsity

Which is not what this was

I only meant to say

I said I love you

In just nine days.

It was all in passion

Sure, I revealed my darkest secrets

Knowing only your name,

Because the air around you

Wrapped around me,

Stroked my hair.

Even when bad things

Crossed my nervous lips,

You just smiled,

Encouraging me to continue.

You spoke too

About your wrongs and rights

But even your wrongs were pure

Your slate a creamy white

But your soul told you it was bad.

I was captivated by your past loves

I leaned in closer when you

Told me about those you had betrayed

They were few,

But they sat heavy on your heart.

Love flashed before my eyes

But I only knew 10%

Of the person I know now.

Love cannot exist in 9 days.

The summer was our bud

But in fall we truly bloomed.

Remember the week

We thought it was over?

We had become captive

By the very thing we thought

Could never harm us.

Distance is a killer

And he had me cornered

A knife to my throat

But when I saw you

600 miles sped by

Seen in the peripheral

I was re-captivated

With the way you cooked for me

With the way you looked at me

Across the table

Fingers outstretched

You did not spit guilt

But showed the love I knew

You had already felt.

And I remembered the solstice

How you opened up to me

How I said I love you nine days later.

This time,

Without a break in my voice

I said it for real.

-Summer

7 more weeks

i fucking hate her for this

I’m not happy that shes happy anymore.

Her joy and free will given how fast this has all fallen apart.

It breaks whats left of me.